December 2011
5 posts
.fuck.
.fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
.fuck.
ouch
“.though earth and moon were gone
and suns and universes ceased to be
and thou...”
– emily
October 2011
2 posts
“having levelled my palace, don’t erect a hovel and complacently admire...”
– heathcliff
September 2011
4 posts
.gypsy.
i’ve moved a lot. an awful lot. i won’t say i ever got used to saying goodbye. i remember being 7 or 8 and crying when our fridge died. instead of the normal attachments kids have to their home, their childhood, mine were misplaced. misplaced in ways that would baffle some, but made perfect sense to me. that refridgerator had been with me longer than my current bedroom. longer than...
.community.
the world would be a significantly better place if we all still lived in small, pack-like communities. i fully understand why people in some cultures live with 3 to 4 generations in one house. being canadian i have a fundamental belief in space, but i respect the idea. we are all alone in the end.
while we are young we look for that one person who we can rope into being there with us through...
.midnight coffee cake.
thanks for the recipe nana. i miss you. <3
.everlasting love.
i’ve had that song stuck in my head all day. its catchy.
i’m over my bedroom right now. i have trouble sleeping in there anymore. its become the storage place for my anxieties. unfortunately, living with 3 other people makes it hard work to sleep on the couch without having to answer difficult questions about my weird sleep habits and mental stability.
there is a south park...
August 2011
11 posts
.insomnia.
i woke up at dawn this morning. fully awake at 5 in the morning. i would be a fantastic farmer. that’s not true. i would be the worst farmer ever. i wouldn’t have any animals for the plain fact that i would refuse to clean up after them. and i would have no crops because i kill every plant that comes into my care. so i would be a farmer who farms nothing. which i am pretty sure...
someone failed to teach me the moves. someone really dropped the ball there.
“if earth and moon were gone
and suns and universes ceased to be
and thou were...”
– emily
today at work i had a 5 minute conversation with a pregnant belgium woman who wanted to eat the sirloin steak but was worried about it being thoroughly cooked because, being pregnant, she can’t eat even slightly uncooked meat. assured she could have a fully cooked through piece of meat, i went off to ring in the order. when i returned with cutlery, she had lit up a cigarette.
right.
“I’ve dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and...”
– catherine
no work today. i think i will forgo sleep for its always sunny in philadelphia and mayhaps a new episode of true blood. because i think sleep deprivation and brain rot are a good combo.
i will never get over seeing the tops of the clouds. it still seems impossible every time. amsterdam has welcomed me home with 12degrees and rain. but it feels right. if i had come home to sun, it would have felt foreign to me. the house is quiet. nothing seems to have changed. i feel like i snuck out and back in again unnoticed.
to sleep or not to sleep. in this moment that is the biggest...
crosswords and candies <3